Thursday, January 30, 2014

Dead Blogs

There's always a point in my day when I take a break from work and take a look at a few blogs. It seems like every day there are less and less blogs and less and less posts on those blogs. It makes me sad to see all those blogs that I would read every day disappearing. I have a full folder of blogs that are no longer. I call it the Dead Blog folder.

Then I realized I was was one of those blogs! I miss the blogging. I miss coming here to tell you a funny story. I know in part it's because I've been putting so much time and energy into my business. Hey I'd say that's a good reason! However, I blame the other part on facebook. Really. It's far too easy to run over there really quick and post something funny that happened. Well, when I tell all my funnies over there, what the hell do I have to talk about over here?!

So, I've been making a slight exit from facebook. Not a big dramatic I-can't-take-all-this-drama-and-bullshit exit. Just one of those pulling back exits. I love to see what people are up to, but I feel like it's a big time suck. I do appreciate how it does bring us closer to people in ways. People that I haven't been able to get to know in real life, are now in touch with me on a daily basis. I know it's not face to face but it's more than I've been able to have with some of these people in years.

On the other hand, I've been a bit discontent with how I've been spending my spare time. I've been putting a lot of time in with my business and I feel like I need to reward myself with quality spare time. Facebook is not quality time. I'm not reading books like I used to. I'm not spending my time in the garden. I'm not writing on here like I used to. Three things I find very rewarding.

So I've decided not to become one of the dead blogs that I used to love. I have definitely realized I need this outlet. I need to bitch to you! I need to tell you the stupid shit I do! So, I'm rewarding myself by letting myself write again. I already feel better!

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Happy New Year!

For the first time in a very long time, I didn't come into the new year as excited as I usually do. I wanted to. I was ready for the holidays to be over and me to be loving the new year...but I didn't. I had a bad attitude. There wasn't even one specific reason or any real reason. I was just in a bad head space. Which was totally annoying. Of course that bad mood didn't stop my normal New Year purging/organization fest that comes over me every year. I can't even stop that shit.

Luckily I bucked up and put on my big girl panties. I'm finally in my normal new year excited mood that I love. The kitchen is organized. The living room is back to it's normal happy took a real hit between Christmas, my sister visiting, and people over for new years eve and new years day. I had already hit the hall and bedroom closet earlier in December. There are a few little areas to get to, but they are really low on the list. The rest of the house is in a good spot. But the garage is on my radar...

The only thing really left was my New Years Not Resolutions. I don't do resolutions if you remember and this really isn't a resolution so much as continued goals that Mario and I have. One of the big things Mario and I have is to buy a house in about a year. There are good things and hard work attached to that goal.

 First, this means we need to get rid of more debt. We ended last year in a good spot with debt. We had gotten rid of some bills and started focusing on how to start really hitting our student loans. We also have to really hunker down and save the money! So, one of the major projects I gave myself was to go through the last three months of our banking and find out how much money we spend and where. Holy hell! I will not tell how much going out to eat costs! I really had no idea. It was enough of a shock that I made two weeks work of crock pot meals that are now sitting in my joking.

I'm excited about the second part..starting a family. One of the things that I don't think I've ever mentioned on here is my inability to get pregnant. Not that it's a secret. I just haven't really gone into it. I am 37 years old and want to be a mother. Mario wants to be a father.  One of our major problems with fertility treatment and private adoption of a baby is money. We don't have that kind of money. We can't see putting ourselves into that much more debt, when there are children in Los Angeles county that need parents. Part of us buying a house means that we can adopt. Really we need a second bedroom. I know that's a very simplified way to put it but it's true. We are going to start that classes for adoption and fostering next month. I'm excited and scared...but far more excited! We'll see what happens. Of course, we'll still keep trying to get pregnant!