2009

I'm not sure how many times I've written this post. I just can't figure out how to say what's going on in my head...but that's really not all that new. I swear this is the fourth time I've started this post yet again.

So it's just occurring to me how much I really love the coming of the new year. The days really don't feel different, but I love the feel of a clean slate. I totally fall into that new years psychology of starting fresh and new. I just love the feel of it. I've never been a big fan of new years eve, but I sure love the first day of the year. I tend to be that annoying optimist, so the new year totally fits me. It makes me want to nest and refresh everything around us. So, I love to organize the shit out of the apartment. Lots of purging and cleaning. Papers, clothes, and junk are reorganized. I've been moving all kinds of shit around. It puts me into a good state of mind and makes me feel like I'm headed in the right direction...even simplified the ol' blog...makes me feel better already.

Now one thing I don't like about New Years...resolutions. They bug me. Mostly because I haven't ever kept one past week two. I think last year was the first time I made any resolutions in 10 years or so. However, I didn't call them resolutions. I called them changes I made at the beginning of the year, didn't want to jinx them by calling them resolutions. Not only did I make them, I kept them. So I decided to give it a go again this year. But I really have to think about it. I want to keep my reso~gulp~lutions going from last year because why stop. I just want to add in a little. But I'm still thinking this out. The one from last year that I thought I would have the biggest problem with was not buying books. I think the first couple of months were tough, but then I learned not to go near the books at Target. That really cut down on temptation. I actually considered buying a book for myself as a reward, but I decided it seemed a little backwards. Then someone awesome sent me some awesome books in an even more awesome care package. So I didn't have to break resolution. Thank you!

I figure I'll really have my resolutions figured out about the time I get the house together. I always have my business and personal goals figured out and those are totally different than resolutions for me. Maybe they aren't different. Goals are the the accomplishments we aim for. Are resolutions supposed to be used to get to those goals? I guess I think of resolutions as a betterment for us. Who knows. I guess they can be what we want. Maybe I should have some ridiculous resolution like "no wearing black on Fridays". That would be hard and I don't know that it would better me as a person really...hmm, so any ideas for resolutions? What are yours?